I did something that was'nt as bad as you make it seem
this punishment is total shit and I think you know it
you want to let me free but don't want to go back on your word
you have been cursed with the same affliction as I
too much pride and won't sacrifice it for anything
just let me go you and I both know i don't deserve this
but no you have told me what the disciplinary action shall be
and no one and nothing can change your mind
so i shall sit back as though it does'nt bother me
act defeated like you have defeated me and my spirit
but don't you dare get cocky you bastard
you can try to make it hard for me and the one I love
but
Drip, drip,drip as my blood hits the ground
oh what a soothing sound
red on the tile black when it dries
oh how the color soothes my eyes
pretty designs only it can make
oh this pain, so far from fake
knife in hand wrist held high
maybe this time i won't fall shy
Most alluring crimson you excite me so much
you appear with the knife's soft touch
little tiny drops appear from my wrist
I no longer wish to exist
with this knife i bring relief
it takes away all my grief
all the blood washes the pain away
so this will save stop it for today
but what can be said for future days?
will i have to find new ways?
oh fuck it why should i
Why don't you hear me? by trinity122288, literature
Literature
Why don't you hear me?
I scream and yell for your attention
but you wont listen too wrapped up in your world
you've scarred me can't you see?
i'm all alone in this world of pain and sorrow
i really owe you a thank you
because you created this world for me
everytime you turned your back on me
treated me like dirt
You make me cry with a forced smile
the malice makes me cringe
and you laugh at my pain
make me feel so insignificant
and in a way i like it
if you cause me pain you must be paying attention to me!
it's such a thrill being your doormat
such a pleasure to be your emotional punching bag
your uninvited anger is like an old friend
and it alway
What do you want from me? by trinity122288, literature
Literature
What do you want from me?
What do you want from me?
In the beginning you looked in my eyes
dissapointed you didnt see the streams you wanted
thought i was too strong to cry, but i wasnt
I was just too numb, numb to the world
What do you want from me?
I could'nt feel a thing and didnt care
I didnt want the pain i now yearn for
the pain that makes me feel complete
the only real emotion i've ever felt
but now these eyes are nothing but waterfalls
this heart knows nothing about being whole
i cry for hours on end over my solitude
and now you think im crazy for it
What do you want from me?
you think i should be over it by now
but i don't think i ever will be
You can try but you won't win by trinity122288, literature
Literature
You can try but you won't win
He truly loves me for who I am he's sweet gentle and kind
i'm not exaggerating when i say he's always on my mind
i stay up thinking very late almost every night
thinking about how great it would be for him to be there and just hold me tight
i wake up early everyday to just be with him
and when i'm around him i know my spirits will never dim
when i have to go without seeing him i feel incomplete
for him i would give up the window seat
We are so alike i'm so happy he found me
it's like we were truly meant to be
he takes all my pain and anger away
his greatness leaves me in dismay
We have endured dissaproval and others stupidity
i h
It's an unspoken rule between you and I
If i think he's cool i will deny
because when you 2 end
our friendship won't have to mend
when you 2 break up like you probably will
I'll say he was the guy that we should kill
because if i say that he was pretty nice
then most likely i will need a bag of ice
I know i expect the same from you
and i know that's what you will do
you will say you never liked him from the start
and that we are better off apart
it's a little lie we all tell
to keep the other from feeling like hell
say the guy was an asshole,mean, or just a dick
so she can validate dumping that little prick
but I guess it's a
A young woman cries alone at night
she prays for somone to hold her tight
A young man smiles but in his eyes it's a lie
He thinks about his life and heaves a sigh
She sits alone in darkness and despair
she truly believes no one does care
Why doesnt anyone care he screams
she mutters I am all alone it seems
Whats wrong with me he begins to shout
the girl just lets the tears out
he says "is it something I said or did?"
she says "is it because i always hid"
him "why didnt i tell anyone how i felt"
her " why did i let him use the belt "
him "i should have taken the chance i see"
her "i should have told them that he beat me"
him "F
Some people scream and some people shout
I guess it's just to just blow off steam
these people want to stand out, be known
but i guess this crazy belief is my own
i want to be forgotten to just blend in
for no one to notice my face or my skin
I'm perfectly ok with being ignored
for its ok if with me you are bored
for whats to be but brown eyes and hair
i have tan skin but i doubt you care
I'm a little shy but i'll speak my mind
and i guarentee it's not always kind
it's kinda odd when think about it
i like to ignored but i wont take anyones shit
i've given up on fashion and trends
maybe this intelligence will reach my friends
i
So you feel the same way by trinity122288, literature
Literature
So you feel the same way
A smile slowly crosses his face
Like smoke wisps caress skin
When he smiles its like a fire has been ignited
It chases away all the darkness in the world
He scrawls beautiful words across the page
But these aren't mere words they paint a beautiful picture
I hear him speak in class
And his voice dances across my eardrums
I glance at his eyes from across the room
They are like two shining pieces of amber only I can see
He laughs at a joke I make
And his laugh is so gentle and musical
He walks across the room towards me
And my heart is similar to that of a hummingbird
He talks about lyrics and how they are like poetry
And its lik
Last night the stars were bright
i was sad at the tears felt right
you wern't there so sit with me
shoot the breeze so carelessly
I went to the beach water hit sand
The waterwas cold, as cold as your hand
The water sparkled the dolphins jumped
inside of me adreniline pumped
you were taken extremly soon
in the mountains of time yours was a dune
the water was cold the sand was warm
inside of my heart raged a storm
i look around every whichway
everything you love shall be carrieed away
Mom i really miss you alot
Even though you said i would not
obviously that isn\'t true
because i can\'t help but feel blue
to fear for the worst but hope for the best
but the sick realization just hit my chest
you won\'t be there for my wedding at all
not even for a simple phone call
it wasn\'t your fault of this i\'m sure
i just wish i could have found the cure
you were ok with my music you gave it half a chance
and to the song elevation you and i used to dance
every day i miss you greater and greaterrr
but i\'m sure i\'ll see you later
You had a hard life that much i was told
partially because your dad left when you wernt too old
it helps me alot to read your journal
because to you it was very personal
to see and hear all your feelings
all of them togeather are like little healings
i love you more than you could imagine
and i can still remember the softness of your skin
you wanted to meet my boyfriend he wanted to meet you to
we wanted your approval more than you ever knew
you wrote in your journal the unimaginable pain to lose a spouse
well it hurts me alot to watch dad pace the house
you kicked your old habits now that i do admire
your loving heart was so war
Beloved wife and mother by trinity122288, literature
Literature
Beloved wife and mother
You Always had and gave a hug and a kiss
and those i shall surly miss
looking at your piscture on the wall
i wonder if you knew at all
did you know you were doomed to leave us here?
did you live that last weekin in fear?
i know i\'ll miss your care and grace
and i shall surly miss your face
i do remember your swwet scent
and in your arms i found meeiment
you always believed in god and his care
and i hope your happy way up there
i\'m a little mad you left me like this
without a goodbye,hug, or kiss
but that\'s the way the story goes
what happens in the end nobody knows
you loved the ocean everyone kew
you were amazed at the sp
she stands by the casket with a tear in her eye
trying desperatly hard not cry
the unthinkable has happened she doesnt belive what shes told
it couldnt have happened she was only 41 years old
but there she lies as peacful as ever
that peaceful sleep shall last forever
she left so many behind
she will always be on their mind
they must tell this story to all their friends
it seems like the story never ends
they are reluctant to tell the story for it brings remorse
the sadness takes over like and undeniable force
she never belived she would outlive her own daughter
she easily remembers this childs first totter
how can she belive so
The normal is abnormal by trinity122288, literature
Literature
The normal is abnormal
Some days seem almost normal and others are so hard
simple things make me cry like reading a card
reading your journal and how you spread love
i hope you are enjoyig heaven above
not carin abut what otherrs think of me
i somethingyou taught me lovingly
you want me to do well in spaish and in school
and i thought talking to you in spanish would have been really cool
but i was robbed of that luxury
you were taken way too early
i guess no matter how much time it would have been to short
if it was anyones fault we will see them in court
i miss our weekly trips to the beach and to the bay
you are o my mind every single day
soon ill
the fith element is spirit by trinity122288, literature
Literature
the fith element is spirit
She floats above the body a little bit confused
yeah right thats my body she cynically mused
she sees the doctors and the nurses
she cant believe it she just gives a blank stare
she watches the doctors slowly clear
and observes her husband and daughter draw near
the husband kisses his wife and says goodbye
the daughter cant help but sit and cry
and thats when the realisation sinks in
she cant feel hem touch her skin
she wiews er hsban an daughte ile out
she wants thm to coeback she wants to shout
se couldnt have died this way!
no before her daughtes special day
hown the hell could this happen
she doesnt want any of this not eve
I watch the rain sparkle through the air
it drops so fast it was hard to belive it\'s there
the drops are cold and leave so fast
i wish the rain would really last
most people think it\'s insane
but i love to dance in the rain
now if you think my idea is completly lame
then i think your spirit has grown way too tame
you should let your soul be wild and free
and most the time it comes easy to me
this weather brings sadness to some
but for me that day will never come
They say that we must fight we must show them who\'s the boss
this brings the obvious question of at what cost?
how many must suffer and die
there are no victories its all just a lie
how can you call this good when its obviously bad
your idea of winning is so ludacris its sad
we kill so many innocent without a second thought
something i would like to know is where was this taught
this is not something that can be taught in a house home or school
this cruelty and tortue is used a unreasonable tool
this pain and suffering angers me to an extreme
this meaningless hate makes everyone act obscene
life is so fragile it can be gone with
I sit here with this pen in my hand
hoping to write something grand
should i write of the books ive read
should i write all thoughts that go through my head
will i tell a wicked tale
or am i doomed to fail
should i write about love or hate
should i write of a perfect date
are all my poems meaningless
do they all end up a mess
has my inspiraton run dry
will all my writing slowly die
are all people lying saying it\'s good
is the like like an executioner to his hood
should i just give up and stop
is that my other shoe to drop
is this all a waste of time
because all poems are better than mine
crying face to face
i shouldnt of let her cry
how could i ever be true
if all i am is a lie
underneath you
giving away every emotion
felt like i've just been poisoned
left me screaming
and you couldnt say one word
burning
burning right through
yelling at myself
for what ive done to you
you're faded
you're dead
and jaded
she's hated like she hates
the same fire that burnt through
now it burns through you
i couldnt cry to her face
i should of let her cry
if i could cry for her
but now she's dead to me
to the point that i cant see
you're jaded
Swift and merciless it travelled
Coiling gray across sky water
Making bones from all the rivers
Thieving life from each in passing.
Darkening the bright horizin
Then it drove the sun to hiding
Leaving us to stare in wonder
As the end came ever closer.
Swifter still was each man herded
Bolting, sealing doors and windows
Gathering the last of harvest
Keep a wary eye for stragglers.
Slowly, how our air was taken
Tainted by the moving poison
Driving strongest men to kneeling
Gasping, begging, but no mercy.
Silent, stone encased remaining
We with family and with prisoners
Taken during war, remember
We were fighting still at sunr
::golem depart::
from earth he came
as strong as steel
but soft as sand
he learned to feel
taught to fight,
he fought to win.
then saw the right
and saw the sin
he saw the blood
that dyed the clay
the blameless girl
who died that day
with tears of mud
and moans of sod
he fell to earth
he flew to God
from earth he came,
no heart or soul,
but learned to feel
and paid the toll
broke bread with men
who broke his heart
to dust returned
Golem Depart
My tears,
they stain my cheeks,
no one sees,
im invisible,
to you,
you cant see me,
i hide in the shadows of life,
watching the passer by,
people come and go,
none stay long,
none stay to love,
to care,
to share,
to hold me,
and tell me it\'ll be all right,
because i am invisble,
none can see me,
i hide in the shadows of life,
im just invisible
you break me down,
break my spirit,
make me feel like nothing,
you break my heart as if it were glass,
shatter it to millions of pieces,
i pick up the pieces that break my skin,
the blood trickles down like tears,
i still love you,
take me back,
i cry for you to hold me,
for you to want me,
for you to care,
you dont even give a second glance,
your words just cut me like a knife,
they pierce my heart,
my soul,
my being wants you,
for you to hold me,
to touch,
but it can never be that way again,
always seperate,
always apart,
because you break me down.
Here I lie
In my solemn demise
Suffer my Silence
Silent demise.
Its late
Why dont you go?
Having you here was really great
But now Im depressed by your tableau.
Its very depressing
Seeing you go
Your feelings you're ever expressing
Simply by your caressing
And I, lovingly acquiecscing.
I felt one day your tender care
And give it up I wouldn't dare.
No matter what happens, I won't let go.
Though all I have now is your loving ghost.
You died that day in the terrible crash.
You body now was burned to ash.
I had no time to hear you ask
On that final day before Pasch.
So here I lie,
In my demise.
Once someone's angel,
Thou
Current Residence: san diego Favourite genre of music: all Favourite cartoon character: Rogue Personal Quote: Does the walker choose the path or the path choose the walker?
Song of the day: Turtles- so happy together
Lyric of the day: "i can't see me loving nobody but you for all my life when you're with me baby the skies will be blue for all my life!"
Well today it has been 2 months and i just have to say im loving it :). he got me this really cool glass orb thing that i said looked cool the last time i was with him. it's like this aqua color. and on it he put the lyrics to so happy together.it's so sweet i feel so spoiled never has anyone treated me so great as he does.well i have to get back to talking to..well you already know so toodles
song of the day:all my fault
lyric of the day: "tell me sumthin that's sure to break my heart cuz everythings my fault"
i love that song lol. anywho been a while since i wrote so let's see whats new? well i went to my g-mas had a pretty good time then i came home today and went over to brians and watched final destination 2 a pretty good movie hilarious end...to me and brian since we are practically the same person. then we were about to watch fiddler on the roof but realized i wouldnt have time so we saved it for another day. so then we just hung out for a little bit listening to music and then after a bit singing it was awesome. then i ha
song of the day:R.E.M - losing my religion
lyric of the day:"that's me in the corner that's me in the spotlight losin my religion"
let's see there was a fire and it was gettin pretty close to my boyfriends house and it was creepy we were in a zone that was sposed to evac so we did but we couldnt figure out where to go so we ended up going to brians grandmas with him it was awesome. i mean being with him put all my worries to rest the first night we stayed up until 5 am talking and then we passed out in the dining room like a foot away from eachother then the next day we were really tired cuz we only got 3 hours of sleep so we ended up taki
YOU HAVE BEEN KISSED! Spread the DA love around! Pick any of your friends who you think don't get much love and, KISS THEM! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)
*dingding* RULES:
1- You can kiss( ) the person who kissed you!
2- You can kiss( ) the same person as many times as you see fit!
3- You -MUST- spread the love people! At least 1 kiss()!
4- You should kiss( ) in public! Paste it on their user page so they feel loved!
5- Random kisses are perfectly okay!
6- Please, don't worry about same gender kissing,it's a love kiss!
7- You should most definitly get started kissing right away!
Remember, this is about showing love to your fellow DA peeps! Everybody should get a
*this da love was started by ~iris-emotions
I love Garth Nix.. I assume you read the Abhorsen trilogy? I had a hell of a time tracking them all down in paperback for my personal library. Man, I haven't come across good reading like that in a while. Elizabeth Heydon's Raphsody trilogy is good, and Pullman's His Dark Materials is earth-shattering.. It's awesome that someone else like's Nix! Heh, just listen to me chatter, lol.
Oh yeah, the Wren trilogy was awesome.. but i haven't read that since i was eleven. i think it's time again.
Hi I have something to ask you. I stubled across your webpage and you seem really understanding. I need help. I read this quote in class "To be the conductor of an orchestra you must turn your back on the crowd". I totally follow people and i am not happy. I am very depressed. Another thing is that (not to freak you out) that i am not sure what my sexual prefrence is. i am stuck. i like girls but for some reason lateley i am drawn to boys. And i think this boy in my spanish class may like me. I am sitting there and i always see him glancing at me and then i glance back at him. Finally today i caught his eye he blushed and i whipped my head around to not show him that i was blushing. I dont know what to do!!! people in society breed and brain wash their kids that "Homosexualty is bad every homosexual is a pervert" i dont know what to do please reply!
heya. i like your poems. i've only read about 5 of them so far but i'll be back to read more. The Only Advice I Ca Give is really great, my favorite of yours so far.
Dude i was reading all of these comments and came to realise that i have not yet made a devious comment...and all i have to say is that your stuff is boss! as geekie as boss sounds. But anyways Lets hang later. im outie 5,000-The virgin Mary